Stress

So, I'm down to 24 days, and I'm very excited. However, I'm stressed, and have lots of questions. This would normally be okay, but I'm taking it out on the wrong people. I don't even know exactly what I'm stressed about. I know that I have a lot of stuff to do, and I will probably wait until the week before I leave to do it. Then, I can usually leave my head on straight and get things done in a timely manner. Weird thing is, I do better under a short time-line. It's almost like I have too much time right now.

I go back to fall retreat, at Camp Comeca. During one of the power sessions, I was alone, praying, and taking in all that I could of my surroundings. I talked to Matthea about it later, we were talking about God's presence during our prayer. Matthea said that he could feel Jesus' presence, and that they just sat there, taking in all of creation. My experience was similar, but I was given some directives first.

Those directives were being a better person, husband, and having patience. All of which I'm finding so hard to do during these last few weeks. I think that my problem is that I'm not spending enough time in prayer and asking for help. Maybe that would be a good thing to start with.

Back to BOT, I'm starting a new approach to situps and pushups. Chris (another guy going to BOT with me) suggested it and said it worked well. I will keep updates on here if I feel the same and post what the program is so you can try it if you wish.

I'm down to 185-186ish now. That is huge progress for me, considering I was 208 1 1/2 months ago. My eventual goal is 175, and fit. We'll see. I've cut out pop almost completely, cut back on alcohol consumption, started eating breakfast and vitamins, started eating healthier, and cut out bad snacks. It seems to be working.

I'm calling the guy who wants to buy my car today. I'm excited for the money, and to actually sell my car, but I'm confused on what I will do in the interim before BOT. I tried to talk my wife into letting me get a motorcycle, but that isn't going well. It's much much cheaper than a car, so I thought it would be a great idea, but she doesn't.

Until tomorrow.....